I "joined" weight watchers like I said. Has it worked? NO. Why? Because of me. I fear success. So instead I retreat to my fears. I get all pumped to wake up and to start this journey! I am positive every morning that I can succeed. I pray and turn my fears over to God and plead for his. He helps, he's with me, but I give up somehow, somewhere during the day. I feel like I can handle just one cookie, or one tiny milk chocolaty m&m. I give in. The taste of that sugar lingers on my lips and I want more. I dive into the cookie jar, and stuff my face. I eat one roll and NEED more. I have an addiction. And I don't know how to overcome it. My heart is breaking as I right this. How have I become this? Why did I let this happen? They say the first step is admitting. Well I admit it. I am addicted to food, and don't know how to overcome it.
So here's to admitting. Maybe I can do it tomorrow? Who knows.....
November 24, 2009
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you can do it Jess. I have faith in you. get rid of all temptation in your house, that's where i fail.
ReplyDeleteMy naturopath told me to take some Chromium Picolinate. It helps to stop cravings. Look it up online! You can do it girl. I have worked hard at this very thing several times and I know it is possible! Love you
ReplyDeleteSo there was this time my freshmen year when I wanted to run 6 miles every day, but I was having a really hard time. So every mile I completed I would raise my arms and do a little victory dance as I ran. I was more subtle about my victory shouts if others were on the track with me. But it was easier to run six miles when I was having a celebration every mile. So what I'm saying is maybe instead of giving up sugar you should run six miles instead....or wait...or was I trying to say that you should celebrate every time you passed up sugar? Interpret to you liking.
ReplyDeleteI am laughing so hard right now..Why you may ask..well because this is all too familiar. :) In fact there is a bag of M&Ms SCREAMING at me in my kitchen as we speak (or type--whatever you want to call it). I've given up sugar 3 times in my life--for a month at a time.(because Russ told me I COULDN'T do it--had to prove him wrong) It was hard the first week-and then by the end of the month I actually stopped craving it. But then I retreated and gave in-....you know the rest. So its all about substitutions. Eat something that is yummy and sweet that is maybe a little better than that cookie...like grapes or strawberries, or if you really NEED chocolate like me...go get a little but then brush your teeth right after, or pop some gum in your mouth. I promise it works. Also if you like grapefruit...that works good too to get rid of the craving. :) But don't think for a minute that I am diligent in doing all of these things...I'm a sugar addict as well....:) Its all about baby steps..
ReplyDeleteJess,
ReplyDeleteI could've written this myself. You articulated what I feel pretty much everyday. If you figure it out, let me know, okay?