Addiction

I "joined" weight watchers like I said. Has it worked? NO. Why? Because of me. I fear success. So instead I retreat to my fears. I get all pumped to wake up and to start this journey! I am positive every morning that I can succeed. I pray and turn my fears over to God and plead for his. He helps, he's with me, but I give up somehow, somewhere during the day. I feel like I can handle just one cookie, or one tiny milk chocolaty m&m. I give in. The taste of that sugar lingers on my lips and I want more. I dive into the cookie jar, and stuff my face. I eat one roll and NEED more. I have an addiction. And I don't know how to overcome it. My heart is breaking as I right this. How have I become this? Why did I let this happen? They say the first step is admitting. Well I admit it. I am addicted to food, and don't know how to overcome it.

So here's to admitting. Maybe I can do it tomorrow? Who knows.....