I don't wanna grow up....

I'm a Toy's R Us kid!

Robbie affectionately teases me probably on a daily basis on how I'm still like a little kid. And his teasing is true. I am SO like a little kid. So it got me thinking and I have come up with a list of ways I still have not grown up.

1. When given a choice to watch a movie, my instinct is to ALWAYS pick a Disney Movie. Here a few of my favorites:

{wow, I had a hard time just picking a few. I could have chosen WAY more:)}

2. I prefer drinking from a water bottle, because it makes me feel like its a baby bottle. Hmm... that's kind of embarrassing to admit!

3. I am still afraid of the dark. TRUE STORY! We can't go to sleep at night till I shut my eyes tight and grab the covers. THEN, Robbie can turn the light off.

4. When I'm sick or even just have a headache or tummy ache, I won't get medicine for myself. I like Robbie to do it because it makes feel like I'm being taken care of. My mom used to ALWAYS give me my medicine.

5. I still say Tummy:)

6. I can't hold still in church. It's true. One Sunday we were sitting in the pew in front of the bishops wife and family, and after sacrament meeting she tapped my shoulder and asked if I have ADD. Kind of embarrassing.

7. I wear my hair in braids AT LEAST once a week. Want proof? This is what I look like today:

8. I don't go pee until the very last second. Like right now, I am dancing in my chair, and squeezing my thighs together. TMI?

9. I may or may not whine till I get my way:) The sad thing about this one is Robbie doesn't give in to my whining.

10. You can bribe with me candy, and I'll do a chore.



Maybe after people read this post, they will stop asking us when we are going to have kids. They will see that Robbie already has one:) {P.S. It does NOT bug me when people ask us this.}

Power in Words

This was sent to me from my cousin. Its BEYOND beautiful.

THE INVITATION

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It doesn't interest me what you do for a living
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shriveled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your
fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithful
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand on the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes."

It doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after a night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the center of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
From Dreams of Desire (1995)
© 1995 by Oriah House. All Rights Reserved.
Published by Mountain Dreaming
300 Coxwell Avenue, Box 22546
Toronto, Ontario
Canada M4L 2A0

Oriah writes:

While I am pleased that this piece, The Invitation, has spoken to many others and happy that it is being shared, I would ask that you honour the original by sharing it as it was written.

CELEBRATION! JUBILATION!

Today is a GLORIOUS day! A day of CELEBRATION. Anyone who's anyone is GIDDY inside for a day like today... Does any one know why a PERMA-GRIN is on my face?
Today is.........................





JANUARY 31, 2010!

No more January for one whole year!YIPPEE SKIPPEE



Here are some pictures that show me that their is warmth, and its just around the corner! Just a few more months baby! I can SO do it! (hopefully:))

Does your soul crave shorts, beaches, bbq's, and hikes like mine does?

Popcorn and a diet coke please!

I love movies. Love them like Robbie, God and my mac... Umm.. So maybe not that much. But its pretty high up there on the list. My love for them has inspired me to start a new segment here on d-e-p. (HA! I totally just made my blog sound 5 times cooler)

I want to feature movies I L.O.V.E. Oldies, goodies, newies:)

Here is my first feature film for today!

SWOON! This movie is my happy place. Its as happy as a big fat slice of cheese cake (from PF Changs of course!).

Growing up, my mom would take a personal or sick day and watch the 6 hour version of Pride and Prejudice. My dad and I always made fun of her and could never imagine why she could get so much enjoyment out of 6 hours of words like Thither, Mischance, Felicity. (Ah that is a line from another movie. can you name it?)

Well if I was to total all the hours I have spent watching this 2 hour movie, I would probably come close to doubling her times of watch the 6 hour version.

I am captivated by the music, the movements of the wind, the enchanting dusk light in so many sceans. I am moved when Darcy looks at Elizabeth, and squeal every time they kiss at the end. I am in my own heaven when I sit and watch the scenery of the skies, and manors, and lakes.

I believe this film is perfect in every way. If you have not seen it, no worries, give me a call and we can watch it together!

Much love,

Jess

Set Fire to the Third Bar

I need a helmet

Yesterday...

bleh....

Have you ever just woken up and known your day was going to be crappy?
Well yesterday gets a big fat F-.

I called Robbie at 3:30 yesterday while I was in the middle of the hall at school and told him that if I was in a more conducive crying place, I would be a big fat blubbering whale. The funny thing is, at that time during the day, I didn't really have a reason for tears.

But the reason did come a few hours later.

I nanny part-time on Tues. and Thurs. The dad called me and informed me that they were letting me go. BOO! He said with the economy, they need some one to be able to put in more hours so his wife can work more.

After that convo happened I turned into the BIG FAT BLUBBERING WHALE that almost happened earlier that day. It was quite a pitiful site. Lucky for me, Robbie was home and held me so tight and let me just go at it for a few moments. (I feel very lucky to have him). After the tears were shed, I felt a little better. It's funny how crying does that?.

I told my cousin about what happened and she get all giddy for me? hmm... Not the reaction I was looking for. She said that she could not wait to see what God has planned for me now... talk about an instant smile to a face.

So yesterday is in the past, and today is new....

I can't wait to see what is in store!

But for the record: If days like this become a common thing I think I will need to invest in a helmet, because life can be BUTT HARD sometimes.

We're all dying...

Today is an interesting day.

A very interesting and thought provoking day.

A day where I am re-directing my life course. A life course that I have always wanted, but didn't know til now. Does that make sense? If it doesn't, thats okay. I'm still trying to figure it out.

I have such a need inside of me to help people. I'm sure we all do. We are humans. We are brothers and sisters. This Haiti disaster has made me contemplate a lot of things. So much to the point, I was on the internet today trying to figure how I could adopt a Haitian orphan... May sound crazy, but my heart is breaking for them.

In my Positive Psychology class today we watched Patch Adams. I've never seen that movie. Have you? It really has added to the thoughts swarming my brain. His love for people is beautiful. I want to love that way, I want to love everyone that way. In the movie he says a quote.

" We're all dying Truman (they are pre-med students).

Our job is to increase health.

Do you know what that means? That means we are to

improve the quality of life, not just delay death."

This quote hit me hard. So hard I have decided to dedicate my life to this cause. The cause of improving quality of life. I want to dedicate my soul and feed it by engaging in Humanity Causes. This is always something I have wanted to do. Really it has. But it has always been on my "Things I want to do in my life" list. Well today, it has entered on the "Things I WILL do with my life" list.

I am so excited about this! I feel so blessed to have come to this revelation. I also know HOW I am going to do it. My photography. My photography is going to be my means to help me complete hearts desire. Robbie's dentistry will also be my second means. We have always wanted to use his skills to help others, but today it has changed from want to a WILL. We WILL use his skills. And they will be mad awesome when he's done with his schooling:)

So since I am dying, and so are you.... What cause do you want to join in during your life? After all... Its our one chance to live.

I'll end with a few pictures of a Humanitary trip Robbie and I went on to Mexico in 2008.

We built a house....

The Gift

I am a firm believer that everyday is a total gift. Though I truly believe that, not everyday feels like a gift. I mean lets be honest I can think of sooo many days that are not so awesome days. Some of those for me would include: Big test days, Getting in an argument, waking up at the butt crack dawn for pointless things, when you see a fresh blanket of snow (now those days really chap my behind!). Any ways you get the picture.

Sometimes its just far too easy to identify the bad days. So I wanted to share with some of my best days. The days that are truly gifts from above.

1. June 2, 2007. By far the best day of my life. On this day I received the whole shabang! I got Wobbie Man! I can still remember as clear as the blue ocean every detail of that day. When he picked me up at my house, to drive up to the temple, I can still remember the beats of my heart. It marched to the tune of pure bliss. Everything about that day was perfect. Seriously.

2. New York 2006. This is a day that will stay dear to my heart till the day I die. It included: Me. My daddy. And the City. It was so magical. We were their for less than 24 hours, and it was some of the best 24 hours of my life. My dad gave me the reins to do what I wanted to do! Can you guess what we did? We shopped till we dropped. Literally! One one or two occasions I found him passed out on the busy NYC sidewalks. When night time came we hit it up WICKED. It was my graduation present from him. It was the ideal day. After all, at that time, he was the man of my life.

3. January 2, 2010. It was a day full of the past, love, and learning. A few months before I had an overwhelming feeling that I needed to conduct an interview with my Papa. So Robbie made it happen. He booked us some tickets over Christmas to Washington and had the time of a lifetime.

My cousin Jen did the interview and gave Barbara Walters a run for her money. She was flawless with her mad interviewing skills. We sat for 2 hours and listened to him to tell stories of his life. He shared with us words of wisdom and love. Every second was magical. It is a treasure that will remain in my heart forever.

Here are some pictures of that day:

It started off looking at old photo albums. CLASSIC!

This is Jen doing the interview.

Please enjoy the video's that brought the biggest smile to my face in 10 and half months. This kid brings me more joy than can be explained:)

Elder Perry is doing such a fabulous job in South Africa!
He is loving every second... and from these video's we can really see that it is every second.

Answers Come.

When I sat down last week and wrote about my thoughts in TIME. I didn't think I would recieve an answer as to how I was going to accomplish my goal of finding more time. But I have. Really! I wanna share it... With you!

My sweetie and I have been in Washington for a week. It's been truly blissfull. Full of family, love, and laughter. It has been very soul healing for me. I have come to a happy place this last week. A place brought to me by God.

I stayed with my dear dear cousin. She is a non-denominational Christan. I am mormon (also Christan). Many beautiful Christ-centered discussions happened this week... And when I say beautiful, it really is no joke.

What I experienced this week was a very humbling and WONDERFUL experience. I was taught through the example of my cousin what it truly means to submit your life to Christ. Her conviction and devotion to Jesus Christ is so beautiful. Seriously as beautiful as a little child's laugh. It's so pure. She gets it. And she taught me, through her example, how to submit to Him and His will everyday.

And that's the answer to my TIME question. SUBMISSION! If I can wake up every morning, with a pure heart and submit my day to his, I will not have to worry about getting everything done that I need to. Because I will be doing what he wants me to do. And not what I think HAS to get done. Trust me, I know I will not be perfect at this, but I feel very happy and smiley inside at the thought I recieved an answer to a question. It a great feeling:)

Thanks for reading:)

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